entry 8

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Man T.C I—I don't even know what was, happening... did the drugs spike or was none of this real— I— T.C— Please. Ca—Can we just end this... fuck—

(Samuel, it looks like we're gonna have to, reinstate you to therpay, I know this is not your ideal choice but... it'll be 3 days Samuel, 3 sessions.)

... I might as well just SHOOT MYSELF and kill everyone in this room why— I— just give me some time alone please— T.C, you don't— you don't know what I've been through—

(Samuel please just put the gun down, you wouldn't turn into a bastard, even if all the contestants made you, even if it was a challenge. You don't even have the balls to do so, Samuel. I know who you are Samuel, and I know your against therapy, but Samuel, open up once.)

Oh god... fuck— am I really a bastard to these people— but I shot Sword English— aren't I a hero to— people— am I bastard to myself?— Just a fucking— DEMON— not— not—

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Not even someone who his father would even love?—

(Samuel, don't worry about it too much, atleast you did the challenge, and that's all that matters, even if you're using violence for it. When Clock Scratch, announces the next challenge, make sure to meet me again, alright Samuel? I know you, I can help you Samuel, I'm your only friend.)

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