entry 8

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I don't even know why we have these fucking meetings anyway.

What do you want then.

YOU DON'T DO SHYAT! YOU DON'T EVEN DO SHYAT!

WHY DOES IT EVEN MATTER IF I'M IN GANGS, FUCKING, DOING ALL THIS OTHER RADICAL SHYAT?!

DR T.C, FUCK YOU, EVER SINCE I FUCKING STARTED THESE FUCKING MEETINGS ALL THEY DID IS JUST WASTE TIME, I COULD BE BITCHING AROUND, HAVING FUN, YOU MAKE MY MISREABLE LIFE DEPRESSED MORE THAN IT IS ENOUGH. I DON'T CARE IF I SELL DRUGS, I DON'T CARE IF I'M POSIONOUS TO SOCIETY. WHAT THE FUCK IS EVEN YOUR DEAL? DO YOU EVEN KNOW THAT I BE KILLING PEOPLE?

YET IF YOU'RE JUST GOING TO WASTE MY TIME, HOW ABOUT YOU FUCKING HELP ME WITH ANYTHING AT ALL, NO ONE HERE, UNDERSTANDS ME, YOU'RE THE REASON WHY I CAN'T EVEN THINK PROPERLY, YOU'RE THE REASON WHY... WHY... why...

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Why I don't even want to be me.

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