entry 8

(Samuel man, I just wanna have a talk. We've been hearing about you, getting into gangs and shit...)

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I don't even know why we have these fucking meetings anyway.

(Cmon man, talk to me.)

What do you want then.

(You've been missing a lot of our meetings samuel, and if you keep on missing out on some more samuel... I might just have to-)

YOU DON'T DO SHYAT! YOU DON'T EVEN DO SHYAT!

WHY DOES IT EVEN MATTER IF I'M IN GANGS, FUCKING, DOING ALL THIS OTHER RADICAL SHYAT?!

DR T.C, FUCK YOU, EVER SINCE I FUCKING STARTED THESE FUCKING MEETINGS ALL THEY DID IS JUST WASTE TIME, I COULD BE BITCHING AROUND, HAVING FUN, YOU MAKE MY MISERABLE LIFE DEPRESSED MORE THAN IT IS ENOUGH. I DON'T CARE IF I SELL DRUGS, I DON'T CARE IF I'M POSIONOUS TO SOCIETY. WHAT THE FUCK IS EVEN YOUR DEAL? DO YOU EVEN KNOW THAT I BE KILLING PEOPLE?

(I know this.)

YET, IF YOU'RE JUST GOING TO WASTE MY TIME, HOW ABOUT YOU FUCKING HELP ME WITH ANYTHING AT ALL, NO ONE HERE, UNDERSTANDS ME, YOU'RE THE REASON WHY I CAN'T EVEN THINK PROPERLY, YOU'RE THE REASON WHY... WHY... why...

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I...

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Why I don't even want to be me.

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(I'm trying to help you Samuel, but if you can't... do your part... theres nothing else I can do....... I'm sorry.)